Union Station

Yesterday was a hard day for me emotionally. I am still struggling with moving on and losing the one that I love due to my situation. I am having difficulty accepting that he has already moved on to better things. I know I should refocus and do the same thing, but how do you let go of someone youve known for almost 7 years. How do you let go of the love youve felt for them for 3 years. I am having a hard time facing the truth.

I decided to surprise Ervin at the train station. My heart beating fast. My palms started sweating. As if I'm living that moment straight out of a movie script. I just wanted a familiar hug. I wanted him to comfort me like he did before. Seeing his crooked smile delighted me, but I was quickly reminded that this feeling is temporary because deep inside I know that his feelings for me are gone. I have to accept the fact that he's moved on and he 's only there as a friend.

Union Station... where trains meet each other at one focal point, sharing a brief time together knowing that sooner or later each must depart they're own separate ways. I guess you can say Ervin and I are like two trains. One headed one way and one headed the other. I miss Ervin. I miss him everyday.

I'm trying my best everyday. Letting go is something I must do everyday.