Inadequate

No it doesn't make me feel any better. I'm sorry that he treated you like an object. Perhaps it's not him that wanted it, but you. I'm very disappointed that you had taken that road, but there's nothing much I can do now. It's not much his actions that I'm concerned about, it's yours. Knowing that you seem to be trying to connect yourself to him after everything makes me feel sorry for you, for he will never see your worth as much as I have no matter how much you try. And it angers me that you have put me in back of the line for him.

You have someone here that you've known for 7 years or so. You have someone here that loves you despite all the mistakes you have made and all the hurt you have inflicted. And yet you still make me feel so inadequate.

And the sad thing is, you have turned a blind eye and will never realize it until it's too late.