The New iPad

The New Apple IPad $499.00

The new iPad left me with mixed feelings. The product looked great. It sure looked easy to use. Portability is a huge plus. So what's wrong with it? Unfortunately for the new iPad, it's all been done before with gadgets like the iPhone or the iTouch preceding its release. Its just the same candy in a bigger bag.

I believe people expected the iPad to handle things that a laptop or a computer is capable of. The fact is the iPad is a digital NOTEPAD best suited for event planners, personal assistants, etc.. etc... the biggest misconception is that people expected it to take the place of the laptops. It isn't. I hope this first step will bring better things for the future generations of the iPad.

With that said... I will wait for Apple to make a better version... probably iPad Gen 3... by then the device will better suite the price.

*Remember when the first iPhones and iTouch were over priced... haha... lets wait a couple of years...

Down the Mountain

Fun times at Big Bear!

New Year Trip: Big Bear

Its the New Year... Working long hours... with hardly any sleep. I deserved a trip dod gammit LOL! So we decided to take an impromptu trip to Big Bear on January 2, 2010. It's been years since I've been on the snow... I was really excited. We decided to take this impromptu trip not just to get away, but to scout out areas where we can take our friends.


At Starbucks on the foothills of the mountain

We decided to stop by Starbucks on the way before we head up the 1 hour drive up the mountain. The area was very suburban. Not that many cars on the streets. A lot of "non colored" people. I felt like a minority haha. I was so happy to see a Taco Bell nearby and brought peace to my mind and eased my anxiety. I thought I was gonna stranded in Hicksville like in those movies.


Welcome to Big Bear

Eating before we scout the place

Village Dr.

Everyones eating ice cream...

It was tricky getting up the sludge of icemud

We're here

My future vacation home

We saw this little area down the way called Magic Mountain. Haha... It's this little snow field area where you can go sledding and slide in the snow.


Taking a ride on the Alpine Slide

This looked fun

My first time on a lift...

We got hungry immediately right after snowing and shopping, haha. We headed out to some Grill.. It got a 4 star rating I think. And i think it lied, haha. They were a bit understaffed. The wait was like 30 minutes long. And they didnt take our order til 10 minutes after we were seated. Not even a glass of water... The waitress was nice though... They didnt get a fat tip thats all I can say.... haha.


Sauces, Sauces

My hungry face

Flashback Dec. 5 2009

So here's what you missed on.. MARK!

December was a very hectic month for me, filled with emotional and physical highs and lows. I didn't want December to be exciting. I guess I just wanted it to be low-key. It's part of my own healing. I didn't want any distractions. Most of the month we just hung out somewhere and just chilled. i bought lot's of stuff... haha. And I finally got a PS3... I think I mentioned that in earlier blogs. but if I didn't it was probably because I was too busy playing with it. HAHA! So heres a few recaps of what happened in December.


South Coast Plaza

Bi-Polar Bear

Shopping =0)

And even more shopping... LA has so many malls haha.


Americana during December

Just hanging out.

Taking pics.

Its snowing!!

People waiting for the snow. Haha!

Busy

Sorry I havent blogged much. I will put up new pictures I promise. I just need some time. Be back up soon folks.

X Says:

While chatting with the ex, he said something profound. I KNOW RIGHT! LMAO

"Forgiveness is a permanent contract that means- whatever u did, it's all thrown out of my head- its gone- lets live now and learn from it- although that's not how i saw it before. and if i brought it up and used it against u, and i forgave u- well shame on me."

Thanks. And since you mean so much to me I'll leave this quote anonymous, hahaha.

Reasons and Forgiveness

I used to think that loving someone means you can forgive them for just about anything. Ive always thought that with forgiveness comes understanding. I never thought about everything else that comes with it.

I always thought about people in various types of relationships. Like why do people get married? What is the purpose behind it? Or why do people choose not to marry but just commit to a partner? Why are some people in open relationships? And what does love have to do with it?

I'd like to think I've experienced (in terms of relationships) and mature enough to try and understand these things. Take me for example: My relationships I admit are pretty much steady, they last for about 3 years or so then something goes wrong somewhere and it ends up with someone sleeping with someone else. I keep in touch with my ex whos become like a sister to me, LOL. Of course there's always going to be that sadness you feel about them when you see them because even though things are great now, there's always that 'shoulda, coulda, woulda' feeling in your heart. I usually just chalk it up to "I will always care about you' feelings. But my ex is in a much happier place now and Im happy for 'em. I forgave him and I understood his reasons for what he did. No it's not OK but I understand and I can live with it because that chapter of my life has ended.

The current relationship Im in now (if relationship is the right term, lol) is all kinds of complicated. It's been about 4 years now. A year ago was all kinds of crazies if you read my blog last year. 2009 was a year of learning for me. What I want, what I need, and what I can live with. I am currently trying to work things out with 'em. I forgave em already. In order for me to forgive I need to understand why IT happened. I need to find REASON for it. My journey doing that took me to a different course. All these reasons and understandings led me to FORGIVENESS. I guess it twisted my idea about what is OK and what is NOT OK.

What if there is NO REASON behind what they did? No... I have to find reason. I need to... it's helps me understand and forgive.

In my search to finding reason and having the heart to forgive, it opened up new views for me. Is this why people just stay in relationships and not marry? Is this why people have open relationships? They end up loving the person so much, that they understood where they were coming from. Overtime the wrongs that theyve done, not necessarily became right, but just... justifiable. And is that how it becomes... 'OK'?

For me, I am struggling with the OK and NOT OK issue. If what they did became 'OK' then whats stopping me from doing the same thing? I mean I have my reasons just as much as they do? I was able to FORGIVE EM. And if what they did was 'NOT OK'? Where does FORGIVENESS stand?

There are 2 choices that lay before me:

I FORGIVE YOU, ITS OK I UNDERSTAND or I FORGIVE YOU, ITS NOT OK BUT I UNDERSTAND

And how would these affect our road to recovery and trying to work things out? I can be "OK" with what he did and that will change my views about how relationships work or I can be "NOT OK" with what he did and struggle with finding balance between the two of us. We'll see how this one plays out... I think Im due for some time to myself.