Time and Space Part II

I spoke to Kristian today and asked him the kind of things that I have been asking Ervin. What does it mean to take some time and space to heal?

From Kristian's perspective, people say they need time and space because they want to have fun, meet new people, experience new relationships. Not necessarily just a vacation from each other, but more to get over someone.

I asked him. "What was his reason for asking me for time and space?"

"Honestly", Kristian replied, "I did not want to deal with the responsibility anymore. I wanted to be free. I knew I made mistakes, I just did not want to deal with the consequences." Practically Kristian stopped caring.

I wonder if this is the same reason that Ervin has but just did not want to say it? Ervin seems to just want to have fun, forget everything. In terms of choosing between me and Armando, Ervin just could not and will not understand.

Kristian told me that it seemed like Ervin already made his choice. And sadly, I'm starting to agree. I mean, how could someone put someone that they say they loved through that kind of torture?

The thing that makes me angry is, Ervin said that it is my choice whether or not to stay friends in the end. Ervin cannot see the damage of what he did. I don't think he even thinks he did anything wrong or at least knew that what he did hurt me. What a cowardly answer is that. Why can't he just say he's choosing Armando over me. It's like saying "I don't know what this opportunity may result in, good or bad. This just means you're expendable". He could have just given me a gun to my head and asked me to pull the trigger.