Friday Nite Fiasco cont.

I never really had the chance to blog this down, perhaps I was too caught up in the comical aspects of it all but, I actually learned or validated my views on certain people that evening talking to the 50 year old man who came up to me.

He told me how he could never hold down a relationship. He did not want to deal with the responsibilities, obligations, and sacrifice that it comes with. "Im just having fun", he said. "That's what life is about: experiences". As I sat there listening to him, I felt this sad loneliness underneath all that pride. Yes he talked about how he enjoyed his life, been with many different people, traveled to many different places but now as I look at him I can't help but think all that experience and where has it taken him? There's a 50 year old guy hitting on a 28 year old guy at a gay club. It makes me sad to think and even compare him to my ex. But I can see a lot of things that he said in my ex because they are the exact same things my ex had told me.

He was shocked when I told him I was in two relationships that lasted 3 years. I was amazed at how he could not fathom the thought of a long lasting relationship.

I believe that as we get older it gets even more difficult to find that certain someone. Perhaps it's because we spend so much time learning things on our own instead of learning together that it gets difficult adapting or conforming to each other's personality.

And though self-reliance and the ability to stand on one's own is an admirable trait, some people tend to forget others around them and get too caught up in themselves and their selfish wants until its too late to realize that they've moved so far ahead they left the people they care about behind. They have the ability to help you, but choose not to because it would compromise their own selfish desires.