Epiphanies & Soliloquies

During the past few weeks, it has been a very hard learning experience for me. This has probably been the longest two months that I have experienced. I have learned about people in general. Some bad. Some good. I've recently had my heart broken by someone that I loved immensely and during this time of confusion I tried to stay strong. I learned that people can swiftly get into a relationship and just as swiftly bail out. I learned that I am a very forgiving man. I am a loving man. I learned that I can forgive anything when I love someone. And though things did not end as I would hoped I learned that I can move on from this knowing that I have tried my best. I was a loyal and loving man. I was a patient and understanding partner. That's really all I can take pride in from this experience. Knowing that I was that kind of person that was worth having as a partner. Forget the superficial-ness of being the center of attention or trying to be the life of the party. Or being the guy who always has something to talk about. That's not what truly matters. That's not what builds a relationship. What truly matters is honesty and loyalty, love, patience, and understanding.

During this time of recovery I learned that I can open my heart to someone else who truly deserves it. Although badly bruised, I know I have it in me to be able to share that kind of love with someone again. Though I am not ready, my heart seem to be healing faster than I thought it would be. Thanks to supportive friends, and those who I consider family. To my old friends, thank you for your patience and understanding. And to the new, thank you for lending your shoulders and ears never expecting anything in return. Thank you for the support you have given me.

And to my fellow fish Mike... those late night conversations, nonsensical banters, and whining about life, I truly am thankful to have found someone like you to share those talks. It's nice to have found someone to share something with on a deeper level than video games. Thank you for being an understanding and patient friend through my tough times. Thank you for keeping me up when I feel down. Every laugh and every giggle means alot. And thank you for your honesty about everything.

I learned that though I am alone, I don't have to be lonely.