Im In-Like With Donut

Ok so I have been hanging out with Donut alot these past few weeks. I see him at least once or twice a week lol. I feel like a kid in a toy store crying "...but I really really want it", haha. Everytime I see Donut I just smile from ear to ear. Maybe its his thick visayan accent, or how he reminds me so much of me, lol. I think it's his height, no... it's definitely his height, haha. He's a down to earth filipino, he knows how it is to struggle. He exudes confidence and at the same time shows humility and I like that about him. He's not flashy or showy... he doesn't need all the expensive things money can buy. A person can be rich in many other ways than having money.

One thing that I do stand my guard on is his carefree attitude about relationships. From what he's shared with me, I guess he's either been hurt so much, or too independent that makes me question his stance on relationships. In a way, I understand him. I've been hurt recently, and I don't know if a relationship is something I'm looking for right now either. But I honestly do like him, and find myself becoming more and more interested. The lesson I learned from my last relationship is that I should not give my heart fully, not anymore. And in a way it has made me become selfish, and guarded and I hate that my ex turned me into that kind of person, just when I started feeling like I can open up to people. But at the same time I'm thankful, because I can be alone and know that I'll be ok. But my ability to love someone fully and have my heart fly has been grounded... at least for now.

Donut is a great distraction from my past, and the problems Im struggling with. Whether or not Donut is the guy that can have me open up again and this thing we have come into fruition, time will tell. I'm a patient and understanding guy. But I can still hope - crosses fingers -